Bah Humbug.

I was a Scrooge today. I admit it.

I have some issues with being at home, and despite some immense and unconditional love for my family prefer to actually sleep in my dorm. I don't have little panic fits, I don't wake up during the night, I don't gain weight. It's fabulous.

I've gained, like, 2 pounds of actual body fat being home. I realize, in the grand scheme of things, this isn't tremendous. Two pounds is nothing. And it comes off, and will do so as soon as I get back to school.

But right now?

Right now I know it's there. And it bugs me. And I've complained about it just as much as anyone can, and despite my having worked out for over an hour each day, it remains two pounds. It's horrible.

And good Lord knows I started out Christmas break at 17.4% body fat, which is pretty great for a girl (it's in the athletic range), so I realize there's no reason to complain. Even though I had an eating disorder in the past and 2 pounds to me is like a small planet.

Buuut. I was on my way to the gym* and this song came on.

And I started bawling. When it comes to other people's stories, I just...let it all out, I really do.

And it was really just what I needed to make me feel better** and less like the curmudgeon that I am.

So...Do me a favor? Don't worry. Don't stress. Because a) I do it enough over the holidays for all of us, and b) even if you're not religious? It's still a time to celebrate. Because you made it through 2008, because the economy is crap but you still have a job, a family, etc. And if you don't have a job or your family over the holidays? You clearly still have internet, which is a LOT more than most of the people in the world have. So you clearly have SOMETHING to be thankful for.

And if you can't manage to find anything, be thankful for this. this, and this.

Damn straight. I went there.

And puppies. Be thankful for puppies.

*Of course I went. It's me.***
**Until I came home and looked in the mirror and..."Oh, muscle? I know you're there...Come back out! Don't hide!" Hahaha. It's not funny.
***I was feelin' pretty high-and-mighty, too, until I got to the gym, which was...just as full as usual. "Um....why are you other people here?"